I sound so unbelievably entitled and petty and selfish right now but I just can’t help the way I feel. My whole life I have struggled with depression and anxiety. I would work so hard at everything and try to live a giving life through volunteering and being a good person. I watched as everyone around me received the highest of accolades and I would get a small pat on the back for the same efforts. I know that sounds so petty, but the tears and depression due to this through the years is very real and very painful.
Now I have children, and I see one of my children struggling with the same issues. He is always seeming to prove himself and succeeding only to then in return be forgotten the next day and almost punished I find this more painful to see what he is going through. I have tried to devote myself to god but just feel so let down. My faith is truly fading and fading fast. The most recent incident has made me so angry with god and has me losing my faith rather quickly.
Please pray that I find comfort in all of this. Please pray so that my son find happiness and peace. Please pray that I find faith.