Anonymous
So, I’ve been given roughly around 30 days or so for my job. I’ll know more tomorrow. I haven’t been able to secure a secret clearance yet for my job, my interim was denied but the full decision on it hasn’t been reached; and while my company has supported me, I was told today that a deadline has been given. The rough thing is that with my health condition, I have severe neuropathy and multiple slipped discs and it’s hard for me to walk around and function at times, getting a new job is going to be tough at this moment in time due to the health issues.
I know that God has a plan…I just don’t know what it is and I’m honestly tired of asking him. It seems like every time I get an opportunity to turn our finances around, the rug gets pulled from my feet. Every passion I’ve had, music, writing, I was even in seminary school going for a Master of Divinity online at a very well-known school. Now with this job… I don’t know what to do or even what to pray anymore. Everything I try gets pulled from under my feet and I’m afraid to step out of the boat anymore. I’m tired of drowning thinking I’m doing God’s will.